Christmas 2014!

Merry Xmas! (:
I really love Christmas.
but since I'm in Kelantan...there's nothing much.
And this year is just disastrous.
Everywhere in Kelantan is flooded.
The water level keeps increasing.
So many people are in danger now.
Some has been rescued and moved to higher places.
Some died cause the boat overturned.
Some ran up to the mountain.
My uni is kind of safe cause it's up the mountain.
But then I heard about the Pergau dam,
if it breaks then all of us in Jeli will most probably will not survive..
The road Grik-Jeli is broken.
There's no way to go back Penang or anywhere.
The road to airport is flooded.
So yea, stuck here.
The exam date is even pushed back from 28 to 31st Dec 2014.
I don't even know if we are going to be safe.
Pray for Kelantan and the people here.

And then it crossed my mind again.
Will I really be okay if I die now?
I once said that I would not even mind or feel anything even if I die.
There's not much that is holding me back except my parents.
(cause I think it's a terrible thing to die before them)
Maybe not a painful death and water is not really my thing.
I know it seems pathetic and people may even claim me to be emo or such.
But that's really how I feel now.
I may be curious about my future.
However, it's tiring sometimes.
To wait and wait and wait.
Wait for?
I don't even know.
Something or someone to rescue me maybe.
From this repetitive life with no goals or such.
To finally show me the meaning of life.
Maybe..

sometimes, I sounded like I needed 'help'

no, it's just me

if you're trying to be positive with me

save it

it will not change how I think.

Been so busy with my last minute thesis writing..

Gonna have my VIVA this Sunday.

Hope everything goes well..

Since last two days, my mood has been swinging like wow.

I'm going through another self-pity kind of shiet.

Yea. Life. I never get it.

there's no happy ending.

it's not okay.

cause I've been having this.

since I'm teenage.

and I never learn.

still as stupid as ever.

518 TVXQ! Catch Me in Malaysia 2013

*I typed this since I was in PSU. Was in my draft till today I finally have the urge to post it. (ง •̀_•́)ง *

Because I'm bored and I have nothing to do in lab waiting for my experiment.

not really, I should do my fyp report or SIEP. shhhh

I decided to blog about TVXQ! concert I went to last year 2013.

Cause I want to remember that day.

(But I'm not going detail about the 2 hours concert. No, my memory is not that great)

It is the third time I see Homin. 

1st time in 2006. 

2nd time in 2007.

3rd time 2013!

How could they abandon Msia for 6 years.

although the stadium never filled but still...

I should start from even before the concert day.

I bought the concert ticket with the help from MY-TVXQ fanclub cause I'm a member since the beginning 2005/2006? and it's more convenient.

I bought the third most expensive ticket RM688 for RM640 (member price).

I didn't want to mention the price here actually

cause not many ppl know which one I bought.

But I'm afraid I'll forget in future. ^^"

I only told my second sis that I'm going for the concert.

When near the concert day, I decided to tell my mom..

The conversation :

Me : I'm going to concert.

Mom : That five again?

Me : Yea. But now is only two. (/cry)

Mom : I saw the news on newspaper. Didn't want to tell you but you knew.

(my mom don't deal with technology)
Me : I knew long time lo. There's internet mom.
Mom : Why you want to go. See so many times still not enough? So expensive. Not like they gonna notice you. Waste money. (the same thing she will say every single time I mention I'm going for concert)

Me : Let me la. I want. I'm just informing you. Not asking permission.

(Ok. I know. I'm a bad daughter.)

Mom : Don't know you la.

And nope, I didn't tell the ticket price. I just keep on saying "Got la."

And my family just left it cause I'm not asking money from them.

(all my savings. T____T)

My concert partner, Veen decided not going.
I'm gonna be alone and get lost in KL.
Nope.
My life saviour is Fifi!
Well, she's my online friend since I'm 15 years old.
We chatted in MSN from time to time.
I wonder how we kept in touch for so long.
Didn't get to meet her when JYJ came.
(another blog post for that)
And I need to be thick-faced a bit to ask if I could go with her. XD
Thanks Fifi. ♥♥
(she's like my online sis :3 )
However, I told my mom I'm going with a senior from uni. The story somehow turned out to be that way. Cause she assumed. And I'm just uhm yea. If I told her the truth, she's gonna go crazy and telling me bout bad people and trust issues.

In the end, I think I kind of persuaded Fifi to buy the same zone with me although she had bought her ticket.
Cause nearing the concert, MY-TVXQ suddenly offers RM788 ticket for RM688.
 So obviously must upgrade ah.
Say I'm crazy.
But no regrets for me at all. Nah ah.

The concert was on 18th May 2013. 

On 16/5 night, I took a bus from my university to go KL Perhentian Putra.

I reached around 5+am, walked and waited for the KTM.

Took the KTM to KL Sentral where me and Fifi said will meet. 

It was early in the morning around 6am when I'm at KL Sentral.

Went around finding for plughole uhm i mean wall plug (?) ^^"

Charged my handphone a while and suddenly bam. Not charging anymore.

So I'm like walking around finding other wall plug in hope of charging my handphone.

Luckily I brought my old Nokia phone along.

(funny event starting next paragraph)

This one uncle approached me. He told me I could charge at the chair near the entrance.

(The KL Sentral entrance which is opposite Hilton Hotel)

I went and sat down and charge my phone and unfortunately, what I feared, the charger was short circuit. I truly gave up buying handphone charger after that cause that's like my 3rd or 4th charger. =.=

The uncle then approached me and gave me a power bank (ciplak but still power bank. LOL)

He said I can keep it cause he still got a few in his bag. 

Uhm. I'm like "Seriously? Thank...you. O.O"

I thought he was from China with all the ciplak gadgets to sell in Msia. :x

After a while, he just sat down and talk to me.

Asking what I'm doing bla bla bla.

Then he started to talk bout life and himself.

Well, from his stories, he's a Singaporean, studied oversea, worked as engineer but quit already cause he didn't want to anymore and travelling alone with some business going on.

He sounds rich since he was telling me he purposely bought an Iphone in Msia for comparison and sold back to the shop the next day for cheaper price, he drove a expensive car, wear expensive clothes.
But he told everything indirectly.
Have to admit, I was a little wow-ed when I spoke to him.
Not that I believe him entirely.
But yea, seems like a good guy.
or maybe not.
We talked from 7+am to 10+am which is when Fifi reached.
He basically waited for me to go off first.
And he took my phone number.
I know mummy say don't talk to strangers and never give your number to them but he seems to be a good guy. Having more friends are gooood. :/

First time meeting Fifi after chatting 7years..
to be very honest, it's quite awkward for me!! not a social butterfly mah
Lucky after a while okay. Maybe cause we chat for so many years d. Or maybe cause we have the same interests. Or maybe we both try not to end a conversation. Just glad we get along. (I really hate when I initiate a topic and the person just end it with short answer leading to awkward-ness again!)

She brought her childhood friend, Efa too. Kind of miss her cause never contacted her since then. (ysterday night messaged her in fb!)

After we ate, we went to Bukit Bintang to find a decent priced hotel.

Found one which is RM180 two nights.

And the unavoidable, there is cockroach in the room. It crawled on me while I was trying to sleep and I was sleeping at the side. Jumped out of bed and shook off the cockroach T____T I think Fifi got shocked too although she was sleeping. Then one time I was the last to shower. After shampoo-ing my hair, the water got cut off. =.= Fifi and Efa pun terpaksalah take water bottle and from the water cooler for me.

We went to walk around Pavilion and met with Fifi’s Japanese friend. Japanese fans are sure rich. Some followed every concert in different countries! After that, I think we ate McD for dinner and went back to room.

Next early morning, me and Fifi decided not to wait for shuttle bus to stadium but took a taxi instead. Efa waited for another friend. Once we reached the stadium, I claimed the concert tickets from MY-TVXQ and then we walked around the area. I bought official lightstick and some unofficial fangoods. But there's a havoc later saying those illegal fangoods should not be selling there i guess cause most is ot5 stuffs. They even say whoever bought could not enter the stadium unless they left it outside. So, I stuffed mine in my bag still my free ot5 paper bag was forced to left at the security table when they checked my bag. (I didn't get it back cause after concert someone took mine and it's gone. ugh)

We sat and waited in the eating tent since they have yet set up the tent for fans to wait according to the ticket zone. Once they set up, me and Fifi were the first to go and wait in line. Maybe cause less people bought this ticket or haven't reach yet.

spot us ¬‿¬

Then we got to know these fans, diyana, aicane and her sister.

We were making jokes that saying Fifi is number 1, me number 2 and diyana is number 3 according to our position in line. Took some pics together. Exchanged twitter account. Talk talk. Crap crap. (:

me and fifi! 

me and diyana

our group pic ｡◕ ‿ ◕｡

And at last we were told to walk in line and follow the staff. I tell you, they are so lucky cause they are just students but applied to be staff for part time job. They get to watch the concert for FREE okay. And we? Paying how many hundredss! /CRY. I know cause I asked them. But they are not fans of TVXQ! Aih.

We were waiting in lines to enter the stadium. The guards were funny too. Cause I’m standing in front, they were like asking “You taw ke mereka nyanyi apa. Cuba nyanyi tgk.” I pun layan cakap la. I even ask how to apply for their job then I can watch concert for free. :/

When it’s our turn to go in, our bags are checked and as I mentioned earlier, need to leave my ot5 paper bag at the security table. Since I went to concert before, I somehow know what to bring and what not to bring. No cameras. No water bottles. No harmful things I guess. But then I still wonder how some fans get to bring their DSLRs inside. It’s so huge okay. How they hide? Or did they bribe? =.=

Quickly went inside and find a good spot! The lucky thing was…there were not many fans that filled up the standing zone. So, they made the decision to let us RM788 VVIP rock zone to enter the RM888 Premium rock zone! Wohooooo. One of the best thing ever that happened to me. ^___________________^

The 2+hour concert. Don’t ask me what happened aite. I can’t remember. It’s just so surreal you know when Homin appear in front of you like,

OMG THEY ARE STANDING IN FRONT OF ME ON STAGE.

OMG I FINALLY SEE THEM AGAIN!

OMG THEY ARE JUST SO HOT OKAY.

OMG I DON’T EVEN MIND I DIDN’T HAVE A BOYFRIEND. (I’m a stupid fangirl)

OMG ARE THEY REALLY IN FRONT OF ME.

OMG THEY ARE SINGING AND DANCING AND RUNNING AROUND THE STAGE AND LOOKING SO HANDSOME AND PLEASE PERFORM THAT SEXY DANCE SONG ‘BEFORE YOU GO’ 

(Although they did not. Maybe cause someone told them not to. It’s Malaysia. Always need to filter. Do not make sense. Everyone is already so corrupted anyway. =.=)

Yeap, I’m just awe struck by Homin. My brain just could not believe I’m seeing them in person again. So near yet so far, that's my quote every time I go to a concert.

Even the dancers are good..smiley. One guy dancer even secretly threw a few water bottles to the fans. He knew we were thirsty shouting out lungs out. Lmao. Psst. That dancer is kyuteee.

The concert is just good. No words to describe. No regrets buying that damn expensive ticket.

I did not take any pictures cause my lame phone is not helping at all and I also give up taking pics or vids in concert cause the first time I did, I don’t fully concentrate on them live but keep looking at the camera to ensure that I get the right angle of video. So..nope. I only take a few for memory sake. It's like at least I recorded something myself. But I do tend to record the song that I very much love.

The song list for the concert :

1. Rising Sun

2. Getaway

3. Hey

4. (Short Clip) + 'O' Jun Ban Hap

5. Like A Soup

6. How Are You

7. Journey

8. Honey Funny Bunny 

9. Wrong Number

10. I Don't Know (Korea Version)

11. Humanoids

12. Purple Line

13. Before You Go

14. Destiny

15. Memories + I Never Let Go + Always There + As Always

16. I Wanna Hold You

17. Here I Stand

18. Dream

19. Catch Me

20. Intro + BUT (Korea Version)

21. Why

22. Unforgettable

ENCORE

23. Mirotic

24. Hiyaya (Summer Days)

25. Summer Dream + Sky

26. I'll Be There

After the concert ends, we rushed out to buy water then line up to take shuttle bus back to the LRT place (can’t rmber where is that ah. urmm.)

Went back to our hotel. Spazz bout the concert. It’s a must kot. Haha. Thanks to Efa, she took some few good clear video from her sony ericsson phone although her seat was quite far. ♥ If I'm not mistaken she lost her phone a few days after that. Stolen I think. Sad.

Next morning, I sent Fifi and her friend to LRT (quite sad that we need to part so soon. Haih) and I went to meet up with Jessica, my uni friend who quit after one year in my course. She LEFT me to be in umk aloneeee (I hope she reads this :p). We ate and talk. Alex called me that time and I didn’t know it’s him until he said that so fast I forgot about him. Can’t remember what he said more. I bought TVXQ! Sticky candy and also for Fifi (it's still with me cause we never meet again till now!)



After that, me and Jessica went to watch a movie “The Great Gatsby” since that's the only movie that suits our time.

Leonardo Dicaprio stars in it. It was a nice movie just that yea, his role, he did everything and risks everything for the girl but he ended up dead and not appreciated. It’s sad. It portrays the society that only has wealth in their mind. Nothing else. Which is very applicable to some of us now.

After the movie, we took LRT (or monorail I can’t differentiate. ==). Me going Perhentian Putra to take bus go back umk. Jessica was with me since she was heading home and it was on the way. (: Really glad I could meet her that time. It’s funny cause we only know each other for about 1+year that time, somehow we still keep in touch and just remain good friends. ^^

Waited for the bus for quite long about 2 or 3 hours I think. Saw some umk juniors there.

In the bus, Alex called me again. I mainly just “Hmnn. Okay. Hmnn. Hmnn” I just don’t know what to talk. He said he wanted to find me in Kelantan or when I’m in Penang. I told him no point find me. Kelantan nothing to do. Penang, I stayed in mainland, I don’t know island road. I can’t bring him anywhere. So no point find me. He said he wanted to see my face. Uhm. I feel weird at that point but hey, I didn’t want to perasan la. Pushed away the weird feeling and tell him if you are so free, go find a girlfriend. He said wait for me to recommend. Told him I have none to introduce to him. The worst thing happened when he said why not I recommend myself. Ohkai. Fcuk. Shiet. O.O

Told him no. Why me? I’m not pretty. Go find others who are so much prettier. He said how could I say that, what would your parents think bla bla bla. Uhm to cut the story short, I kept on saying no and it’s not possible. The line was not clear (cut a few times during the phone call) and being cut off again. Something like that.

I was so afraid he would call me after that. I told a few people about it. I told my 2^nd sis. She LAUGHED at me and saying my dream comes true in finding a rich boyfriend. Ugh. Nooo way. I’m just daydreaming and saying it for fun ohkai. (I want a rich and handsome and younger la. Not uncle T___T)

And I didn’t know she so big mouth she told my family but she told a brief version. And I don’t know what she told my parents that they thought that the bus driver was hitting on me. Huhhh? That’s like soooo big difference. Hahahahahha.

Thankfully that Alex guy never contacted me again. I was disappointed. Not because he never contact me ohkai (I thank god for that). It’s because I thought he was a nice guy/uncle. Sigh.

I think that’s all about my little adventure to concert last year.

I plan to blog on the other dongbang concerts as well. Maybe a all in one post when I’m free (I myself wonder when. I’m a lazy ass).

took a pic before washing my tattoed face ☁

I don’t blog about the concerts I went like others

Cause every single time

After I came back

I felt so sad and heartbroken

Cause I didn’t know when I’ll meet them again

I’m a stupid emo fangirl..

Sometimes, I get so emotional,

I start to cry.

For what reasons, 

I'm not sure of.

it just hits me from time to time

like now..

Actually...

I'm still not over the fact that Luhan left EXO.

Who is going to take care of Yixing, speak to him and comfort him when he cry?

Who is going to play soccer and hang out with XiuMin?

Who is going to control and play with Tao?

Who is going to help Chen in singing?

And Exo-K..

I can't believe that I actually cried about this.

Well, just a little aite.

I think I cried more when JYJ left TVXQ!

well, people must think I'm another overly obsessed kpop fan

if you're not in any fandom, I don't think you will ever get what we feel.

They compared Luhan and Kris.

Saying everyone hated Kris but not Luhan.

Hey, I think there's a huge different.

Kris was one of my bias. I ship FanXing like so hard.

When he left, I respected his decision at first due to his health.

But then all news about him arise. Acting. Singing. Etc.

I see there's nothing wrong with him.

I don't mean I want him to be sick.

It's just, I don't think it's the right time for him to leave EXO when their first concert was just a week away.

All the group activities faced so many problems.

All the members were shocked and ended up tired and exhausted cause they need to rehearse everything back without him for the concert. Imagine all the dances they need to relearn.

I don't think it's only me who felt that Kris is a little bit selfish.

I don't hate him though. Just that every time I saw his news, my heart breaks a little and just a little mad.

Luhan left when he has done all the activities. 

And his health problem...he was facing insomnia if I'm not mistaken.

I thought he would be fine after his rest and when he joined back for concert in Beijing.

How wrong was I.

He left cause of his health, his family and the unfair contract of SM.

Luhan was one of my bias cause my first ship was HunHan.

Then LayHan and then Xiuhan.

And now all the ships are sinking. T______T

I'm just sad cause I kept thinking how the members will be after this.

Luhan is afterall the vocal and visual of EXO-M.

At least the members knew beforehand I think since Yixing posted in his Weibo supporting Luhan.

And Sehun unfollowed everyone in Instagram. Maybe that's a hint.

I even guess that Luhan may have waited for Yixing's bday celebration to be over before announcing his lawsuit.

There's only Yixing and Tao left and I really hope Tao will not leave cause Yixing seems like he will be staying for how long I don't know. But I could never imagine if there's only one chinese member left in the group. It will be so hard and stressful.

Manly Lu-ge Deer,

I wish you all the best and I hope to see you onscreen soon. 

 (ง •̀_•́)ง ♥

I didn't even get to meet you face to face yet.

What am I gonna do?

If you ever have any solo activity and having any promotion,

make sure your ass is in Malaysia!

or somewhere I could reach you.

First heartbreak - JYJ left TVXQ!

Second heartbreak - Kris left EXO.

Third heartbreak - LuHan left EXO.

What's next?

Thank you SM Ent.

Loving the right artists

just not the right company.

29/10/2014

After my 8-10am class,

I presented my last SIEP today.

Fortunately, I think it went well cause the lecturer asked me only one question,

"How long is the lifespan of redworms"

"Ermm..I'm not sure, but they doubled up every 3 months or so"

*shot myslef*

Maybe cause she's my new PA and she's new here in UMK. 

So she's more lenient and less questions..

Bought lunch, went back room, online, eat lunch, fanfics and sleeep.

Woke up about 4.30pm and online again.

No seriously, when you are in hostel, your laptop is your best friend.

What else could you do?

In actual truth,

this blog post is dedicated to Janice Gotoking.

After I woke up from my nap, 

I saw ppl posting RIP on her FB wall.

The first post I saw, I thought it was just a joke..

I mean she's so young and cheerful and everything.

It hits me hard when I realized she's really no longer with us.

I'm not even close with her.

I met her when I worked in Digi after Form6.

She's the one who taught me everything about CS work.

She's helpful and friendly.

After that, we rarely contacted. I'm not sure when was the last time we met.

But this is the only FB msg with her.

And yea, she's a fan of Big Bang..

That was in 2012.

Somehow I really feel quite sad.

I don't know the cause but read from one comment that stated,

heart rhythm not regular caused by inborn heart disease.

It's just..I'm just..

I don't know what to say..

Life is just so unpredictable..

I hope you are in a better place now.

Rest in Peace Janice.

Stay happy.

A pic of you I took from your FB that you uploaded just a week ago..

Just wanted to blog this and remember..

I'm feeling sensitive and emo and shiet.
Think I'm gonna have my monthly period.
I still wonder why girls are shy to tell guys when they are having period.
I mean..it's such a normal thing.
Every matured guys know what we are going through every month.
Not physically.
Oh welll......
Haihhh.

Listening to MIYAVI

to nurse my current mood.

This and That

Feeling sleepy..but decided to blog a bit through mobile.
3M week is okay. I helped for 3 days and went back cause I need to bring my things over before new semester starts.
Juniors this sem is about 600ppl but guys are only 100+ppl. O.O
They are so obedient and emotionless..
Overall nothing much happened.

I'm trying to finish my SIEP.
Hectic semester.
FYP still pending.
Need to settle LI.
Assignments gonna start piling.
Still, I'm in the mood for holiday..
Hmn.

Hope things go well.
Blog bout PSU next time.
Zzzzz.

10 September 2014

Well, extreme bad news cause I'm not allowed to retake Chemistry.

I was so fed up and angry and sad and frustrated. 

How can a lecturer just not help the students.

Rules. Rules. Rules.

Rules are meant to be broken at some point or there's always special case or exception.

I bet I could retake Chemistry if I'm some Dato's daughter or some big shot's daughter.

/SCREAM/

They don't understand how important is this to me.

It's okay. 

If the Dean said no tomorrow, I'll just accept it.

I believe if I could not achieve first class and need to pay my PTPTN,

there's a reason behind it.

If it's God's will then so be it.

I believe God will help me in some other way.

Right? Give me a dream please. Haha.

So, while I was frustrated after receiving this news from Dr. Kumara

I need to wait nearly 1 hour for my class.

Decided to read NLP book on a bench.

Then four chinese boys juniors passed by.

Guess what.

They called me JIE JIE. O.O

"Harlow Jie Jie"

"Bye bye Jie Jie"

W.H.Y.

Well, they are born in year 1994 

*cough* same as Sehunnie *cough*

I was stunned a while and just...smiled back.

Reality hurts.

Sigh.

I think it's the first time someone called me Jie Jie.

It's a little normal when Malays and Indians called me Kak Sue, Kak Teng or just Kak.

But Jie Jie.... 

T___________T

It hurts somehow.

It's like I finally realizes I am no longer young.

lagi-lagi la budak lelaki yang panggil

I will die if any of the younger EXO members call me Jie Jie. 

HAHA.

Later in evening, I met the chinese juniors in cafe.

One of them called me Jie Jie again.

I was like I don't know how to respond and I complained to El that they hurt my heart cause they call me Jie Jie and told them I'm still young. LOLL

One of them purposely called me Jie Jie again when they were about to go back. 

Rascals. 

Haih.

At night, went to meeting but since there were so many people volunteered, we backed off.

Went to walk with El instead. 

Main point, one of the cafe worker thought I'm mixed/Iban and from Sabah/Sarawak.

This is so weird.

It always happen in Kelantan.

Is it really my face or cause I mix with Malays.

Weird.

Trying to think at the bright side.

So many things I want to blog about but I don't have the time 

cause I'm dragging on my assignmentss :x

Will blog about my FYP in PSU Thailand and 3M orientation week next time.

I'm having somewhat a one-sided war with fam. Cause me so much of stress.

And then about my study.

I can't understand why the university refuse to let the student to retake subjects to improve their pointer.

Unless you get C- and below.

I mean HEY, LET ME RETAKE IF I WANT TO! 

I'm making the effort and initiation. 

T____________________T

I literally begging the lecturers and dean and everyone to let me retake one subject.

Please.

I pray and pray and pray.

There's law of attraction I'm trying to apply.

But I still hope God heard and help me.

The day before yesterday, I went back to my dorm from PSU at 3+am

Yesterday, I went back at 4.30am.

Today, I don't know what time I will be going back.

I'm at the brink of giving up.

Time is the main constraint.

Experiment not going well..

Sulfuric Acid

When things just don't turn out right.

Was preparing solution today.

100mL 6M of sulfuric acid.

Did in the chamber and maybe I poured too fast. 

Small explosion or something.

And the acid got on my wrist and upper arm.

Can feel the hotness/heat.

Faster rinsed with water..

Kind of worried though.

Was actually bigger red spots at first. 

After rinsing continuously with tap water, 

became like the pics on top..

Sigh.

please don't leave a scar.

i'll be extra careful next time.

My experiment failed. Gawd. 

I think I'm gonna have a mental breakdown soon. 

Redoing and hope it works. 

/pray hard/

Guess I will be going back my dorm late.

/sigh/

Please work this time.

SM Town in Seoul today.

Changminnie is sho prettay dressing as girl.

ugh.

TVXQ! 東方神起 - I love you

Just because..

TVXQ! 東方神起 - I love you 

(LIVE TOUR 2014 ～TREE～　Documentary Film)

Romaji / Translation :

[Changmin] Doushite namida ga deru no nagarete nagarete yuku no

Why do tears come out? Why are they flowing… flowing continuously?
Kotoba ga omoi ni todokanakute

My words fail to reach your feelings
Tsumuida mono hibi ita oto

What we weaved, past echoing sounds
Samayou youni hoho wo tsutatte yuku

As if milling about, they trickle down my cheeks

[Yunho & Changmin] “Suki” nante serifu ja kitto nanimo arawa shikirenai

Just saying things such as “I like you”, for sure it’s impossible for me to express anything
Kuchi ni dasu tabi itsumo tookute

It always feels so distant whenever I put it in words

[Yunho] Kimi ni wa mou iitsukushita keredo

Although I already told you so much
Soredemo tsutaetai dakara utau yo

Because I still want you to know, so I sing:

[Yunho & Changmin] I love you, so I love you. I love you…
[Changmin] …kotoba janakutemo

…Even if without words

[Yunho & Changmin] Ai no oto ai no uta de

By the sound of love, by the song of love
[Changmin] Kimi ni todoke it’s my love song

I’m going to reach you; it’s my love song

[Yunho] Isogi yuku hibi ni nomarete kokoro ga kakikesarete yuku yo

Getting drowned in rushed days, your heart is going to be submerged by them
Togire souna koe ni kotaerarenai

Your voice seems to be breaking and I can’t answer it
Kizuita hito kizukenai hito

Some people noticed it, some people don’t
Wakatte ite mo kyou mo nagasarete yuku

Even though they’re aware of it, today as well it’ll be washed away

[Yunho & Changmin] “Ai” nante kirei goto dake ja nanimo sukui kirenai

Pretty words such as “love” alone cannot save anything
Motto negai wa tsuyoku… moroku

My wishes grow stronger… more tenderhearted

[Changmin] Kotae wa mada mienaide iru kedo

Although I still can’t see the answer
Itsuka todoku to shinjite utau yo

Someday I believe I’ll reach you, and I sing:

[Yunho & Changmin] I love you, so I love you. I love you…
[Yunho] …koe ni naranakutemo
…Even if I can’t make it ring in my voice

[Yunho & Changmin]
Ai wa kitto soko ni todoku

For sure, love will reach there

[Yunho] Kimi no tameni utau my love song

For your sake I’m singing my love song

[Changmin] Ai wo katadoru monotachi ga hontou no imi madowaseru

Things that take the shape of love deceive us about its true meaning
[Yunho] Me wo tojite mou mayowanai

Close your eyes, don’t hesitate anymore
Kimi ga warau made nandodemo sakebu yo

I’ll shout this as many times as it takes until you smile

[Yunho & Changmin] I love you, so I love you. I love you…
[Changmin] …kotoba janakutemo

…Even if without words

[Yunho & Changmin] Ai no oto ai no uta de

By the sound of love, by the song of love
[Changmin] Kimi ni todoke…

I’m going to reach you…

[Yunho & Changmin] It’s my love song.

credits : @mojim @TVXQSound.twitter

The first time I watched this video, yea, I almost cried. 

I think it's cause of the song and the talks in between. 

(although I understand nothing)

Well, who would have thought after so many years, 

they still have such effect on me.

I sleep with this song.

Hope to meet them again.

Can't deny I'm less fanatic now

but I still care...a lot.

Koh Lipe, Thailand

30/08/14 - 02/08/14

A short holiday in Koh Lipe. 

A graduation holiday for Lob.

Since I'm already in Thailand and coincidentally Lob suggested to have our vacation in Koh Lipe.

I'm glad that it worked out in the end after all the hu ha we made about the money exchange currency and booking tickets etc.

Lob and Veen arrived in Hatyai airport on the 29th Aug.

Asked them to take a cab and come to the front gate of PSU.

They were supposed to arrive around 5.30pm.

I kept waiting for them until 6+pm worrying they would get lost and well, they don't have Thai number so could not contact them at all. D=
One of my lab mate, Guy even passed by and asking where I'm going standing there.

When they arrived, we just lepak-ed in my room and went out for dinner. Just the street near my dorm.

Early next morning, we took a tuk-tuk to 'ta lad ka set' (van/bus station) which cost us 40baht each.

Bought tickets to Pak Bara; 110baht and the journey is about 2 hours.

Reached about 10+am and my friend, P'Maew asked her friend to reserve tickets for me. After all the miscommunication on where to find P'Maew's friend, we got our tickers to Koh Lipe with 1000baht roundtrip each. Considered cheaper since it was supposed to be 1200baht roundtrip.

But then, to enter the Pak Bara entrance, I need to pay another 20baht. Entrance fee which I don't think it's necessary at all.


At the Pak Bara port.

Reached Koh Lipe, need to pay for long-tail boat to reach the island which cost another 70baht (50baht for long-tail boat and 20baht for environment care and public development on Koh Lipe. =/

Reached the Koh Lipe shore, pay another 50baht for 3ppl for small motorcar to reach our hotel, Castaway in Sunrise Beach.

Had our late lunch in Nee restaurant.

Tomyam (kinda sweet and not spicy), chicken with basil and vege. (480 baht)

At night, we went for leg massage cause they say when you're in Thailand, massage is a must!

It's 300baht.
After that, hang out at the Castaway bar. 

I ordered Coke. Ahem.

Next day, morning breakfast in Castaway
(it's in the package RM420 4 days 3 nights queen-sized bed).

Ordered different sets of breakfast.

Sleepy-eyebags-faces.

Then, snorkeling (500baht). Well, bad experience for me cause 

1) we kind of got cheated cause there's no guidance that's promised. gave us the snorkeling equipment and left us to snorkel ourselves.

2) lunch not provided when the fella said he will

3) i don't know how to swim 

4) i got seasick. GREAT.

I think it's cause of the breakfast and butter that I ate. 

So yea, I vomited and wasted the snorkeling money. =.=

I was telling the guy who operate the boat that I want to vomit. I need plastic and he just asked me to vomit at the sea. Veen or Lob was telling me not to vomit at their side. LMAO.

But the sea is just so clear and my mind just tell me that NO, I CAN'T CONTAMINATE THE SEA. wtf.

And there's ppl snorkeling there aite. It's just so gross?

I shook my head to the guy and keep insisting I want plastic. Fortunately, he found one but with some small holes. fml. I saw another plastic with 2 mineral water. Grabbed and used to out of desperation. Turns out it belongs to another two Thai guys who were in the same boat as us (5 of us in that boat). Never had the chance to say sorry or thank you. Ehe. Well, they seems nice enough asking us if we're okay etc.

The whole snorkeling, I just lie there. Okay la. At least I went down the sea at the beginning. Lob and Veen having fun. I can see the fishes from the boat since the water is so clear. 

/trying to comfort self. HAH/

Dinner at night,

Tomyam kung, somtam, fried mix vege and fish. (708baht)

Then went to Thai body massage cause we're addicted to the massage. =p

 The masseurs are friendly. (Name of shop : Tonsai)

We walked around the island. Walking Street and even try to watch the sunset in Sunset Beach but then...

As for sunrise, we could not wake up. =o

Third day in Koh Lipe, breakfast in Castaway as well.

Lobhie said she loves breakfast. 

I said I love my sleep more than breakfast. :x

The final night dinner, we ate seafood bbq in Zanom restaurant

BBQ seabass and my yummy squid, tomyam, vege. (1065baht)

Never miss tomyam in every meal k.

And we went for facial at the same massage place. 

3 treatments = 250baht

*random* my dog in Koh Lipe! ♥

We then wander further the Walking Street until we reached the beach.
Found a cozy bar (I don't know what's the name unfortunately).
I love the stars that night but can't capture in pic.
Star gazing may become my new hobby. /sigh

Ordered our drinks.

The owner is just one funny and crazy like us fella with braided hair.
Chinese kungfu guy looking. LOL



Took some pics with him before we went back.


He helped us to take this pic and maybe he realized he did not a really good job (HAHA) hence, he faster offered to take another (below pic)

It's nice. (:


The lamp in the bar. /fascinated

Woke up early next day to go back to reality.
They provide free long-tail boat to be back to the port and when we reached Pak Bara, bought minivan ticket (130baht) to go back to Hatyai. Going back is always more costly.

Bye Koh Lipe. Missing you.

Some parts I think I missed out. Well, just more craps 3 of us talk everyday and night before we sleep and walking around the island. (:

Glad I have these two friends who I didn't expect to be close with.

We don't even contact at times. 

But when we do, things are still the same. (;

Hope three of us will go for a vacation again in future.

♥

*pics credit to Veen and Lob*

just a short summary to sum up this trip

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