miracles

Actually...

I'm still not over the fact that Luhan left EXO.

Who is going to take care of Yixing, speak to him and comfort him when he cry?

Who is going to play soccer and hang out with XiuMin?

Who is going to control and play with Tao?

Who is going to help Chen in singing?

And Exo-K..

I can't believe that I actually cried about this.

Well, just a little aite.

I think I cried more when JYJ left TVXQ!

well, people must think I'm another overly obsessed kpop fan

if you're not in any fandom, I don't think you will ever get what we feel.

They compared Luhan and Kris.

Saying everyone hated Kris but not Luhan.

Hey, I think there's a huge different.

Kris was one of my bias. I ship FanXing like so hard.

When he left, I respected his decision at first due to his health.

But then all news about him arise. Acting. Singing. Etc.

I see there's nothing wrong with him.

I don't mean I want him to be sick.

It's just, I don't think it's the right time for him to leave EXO when their first concert was just a week away.

All the group activities faced so many problems.

All the members were shocked and ended up tired and exhausted cause they need to rehearse everything back without him for the concert. Imagine all the dances they need to relearn.

I don't think it's only me who felt that Kris is a little bit selfish.

I don't hate him though. Just that every time I saw his news, my heart breaks a little and just a little mad.

Luhan left when he has done all the activities. 

And his health problem...he was facing insomnia if I'm not mistaken.

I thought he would be fine after his rest and when he joined back for concert in Beijing.

How wrong was I.

He left cause of his health, his family and the unfair contract of SM.

Luhan was one of my bias cause my first ship was HunHan.

Then LayHan and then Xiuhan.

And now all the ships are sinking. T______T

I'm just sad cause I kept thinking how the members will be after this.

Luhan is afterall the vocal and visual of EXO-M.

At least the members knew beforehand I think since Yixing posted in his Weibo supporting Luhan.

And Sehun unfollowed everyone in Instagram. Maybe that's a hint.

I even guess that Luhan may have waited for Yixing's bday celebration to be over before announcing his lawsuit.

There's only Yixing and Tao left and I really hope Tao will not leave cause Yixing seems like he will be staying for how long I don't know. But I could never imagine if there's only one chinese member left in the group. It will be so hard and stressful.

Manly Lu-ge Deer,

I wish you all the best and I hope to see you onscreen soon. 

 (ง •̀_•́)ง ♥

I didn't even get to meet you face to face yet.

What am I gonna do?

If you ever have any solo activity and having any promotion,

make sure your ass is in Malaysia!

or somewhere I could reach you.