I really love Christmas.
but since I'm in Kelantan...there's nothing much.
And this year is just disastrous.
Everywhere in Kelantan is flooded.
The water level keeps increasing.
So many people are in danger now.
Some has been rescued and moved to higher places.
Some died cause the boat overturned.
Some ran up to the mountain.
My uni is kind of safe cause it's up the mountain.
But then I heard about the Pergau dam,
if it breaks then all of us in Jeli will most probably will not survive..
The road Grik-Jeli is broken.
There's no way to go back Penang or anywhere.
The road to airport is flooded.
So yea, stuck here.
The exam date is even pushed back from 28 to 31st Dec 2014.
I don't even know if we are going to be safe.
Pray for Kelantan and the people here.
And then it crossed my mind again.
Will I really be okay if I die now?
I once said that I would not even mind or feel anything even if I die.
There's not much that is holding me back except my parents.
(cause I think it's a terrible thing to die before them)
Maybe not a painful death and water is not really my thing.
I know it seems pathetic and people may even claim me to be emo or such.
But that's really how I feel now.
I may be curious about my future.
However, it's tiring sometimes.
To wait and wait and wait.
Wait for?
I don't even know.
Something or someone to rescue me maybe.
From this repetitive life with no goals or such.
To finally show me the meaning of life.
Maybe..
sometimes, I sounded like I needed 'help'
no, it's just me
if you're trying to be positive with me
save it
it will not change how I think.
