29/10/2014

After my 8-10am class,

I presented my last SIEP today.

Fortunately, I think it went well cause the lecturer asked me only one question,

"How long is the lifespan of redworms"

"Ermm..I'm not sure, but they doubled up every 3 months or so"

*shot myslef*

Maybe cause she's my new PA and she's new here in UMK. 

So she's more lenient and less questions..

Bought lunch, went back room, online, eat lunch, fanfics and sleeep.

Woke up about 4.30pm and online again.

No seriously, when you are in hostel, your laptop is your best friend.

What else could you do?

In actual truth,

this blog post is dedicated to Janice Gotoking.

After I woke up from my nap, 

I saw ppl posting RIP on her FB wall.

The first post I saw, I thought it was just a joke..

I mean she's so young and cheerful and everything.

It hits me hard when I realized she's really no longer with us.

I'm not even close with her.

I met her when I worked in Digi after Form6.

She's the one who taught me everything about CS work.

She's helpful and friendly.

After that, we rarely contacted. I'm not sure when was the last time we met.

But this is the only FB msg with her.

And yea, she's a fan of Big Bang..

That was in 2012.

Somehow I really feel quite sad.

I don't know the cause but read from one comment that stated,

heart rhythm not regular caused by inborn heart disease.

It's just..I'm just..

I don't know what to say..

Life is just so unpredictable..

I hope you are in a better place now.

Rest in Peace Janice.

Stay happy.

A pic of you I took from your FB that you uploaded just a week ago..

Just wanted to blog this and remember..

I'm feeling sensitive and emo and shiet.
Think I'm gonna have my monthly period.
I still wonder why girls are shy to tell guys when they are having period.
I mean..it's such a normal thing.
Every matured guys know what we are going through every month.
Not physically.
Oh welll......
Haihhh.

Listening to MIYAVI

to nurse my current mood.

This and That

Feeling sleepy..but decided to blog a bit through mobile.
3M week is okay. I helped for 3 days and went back cause I need to bring my things over before new semester starts.
Juniors this sem is about 600ppl but guys are only 100+ppl. O.O
They are so obedient and emotionless..
Overall nothing much happened.

I'm trying to finish my SIEP.
Hectic semester.
FYP still pending.
Need to settle LI.
Assignments gonna start piling.
Still, I'm in the mood for holiday..
Hmn.

Hope things go well.
Blog bout PSU next time.
Zzzzz.

10 September 2014

Well, extreme bad news cause I'm not allowed to retake Chemistry.

I was so fed up and angry and sad and frustrated. 

How can a lecturer just not help the students.

Rules. Rules. Rules.

Rules are meant to be broken at some point or there's always special case or exception.

I bet I could retake Chemistry if I'm some Dato's daughter or some big shot's daughter.

/SCREAM/

They don't understand how important is this to me.

It's okay. 

If the Dean said no tomorrow, I'll just accept it.

I believe if I could not achieve first class and need to pay my PTPTN,

there's a reason behind it.

If it's God's will then so be it.

I believe God will help me in some other way.

Right? Give me a dream please. Haha.

So, while I was frustrated after receiving this news from Dr. Kumara

I need to wait nearly 1 hour for my class.

Decided to read NLP book on a bench.

Then four chinese boys juniors passed by.

Guess what.

They called me JIE JIE. O.O

"Harlow Jie Jie"

"Bye bye Jie Jie"

W.H.Y.

Well, they are born in year 1994 

*cough* same as Sehunnie *cough*

I was stunned a while and just...smiled back.

Reality hurts.

Sigh.

I think it's the first time someone called me Jie Jie.

It's a little normal when Malays and Indians called me Kak Sue, Kak Teng or just Kak.

But Jie Jie.... 

T___________T

It hurts somehow.

It's like I finally realizes I am no longer young.

lagi-lagi la budak lelaki yang panggil

I will die if any of the younger EXO members call me Jie Jie. 

HAHA.

Later in evening, I met the chinese juniors in cafe.

One of them called me Jie Jie again.

I was like I don't know how to respond and I complained to El that they hurt my heart cause they call me Jie Jie and told them I'm still young. LOLL

One of them purposely called me Jie Jie again when they were about to go back. 

Rascals. 

Haih.

At night, went to meeting but since there were so many people volunteered, we backed off.

Went to walk with El instead. 

Main point, one of the cafe worker thought I'm mixed/Iban and from Sabah/Sarawak.

This is so weird.

It always happen in Kelantan.

Is it really my face or cause I mix with Malays.

Weird.

Trying to think at the bright side.

So many things I want to blog about but I don't have the time 

cause I'm dragging on my assignmentss :x

Will blog about my FYP in PSU Thailand and 3M orientation week next time.

I'm having somewhat a one-sided war with fam. Cause me so much of stress.

And then about my study.

I can't understand why the university refuse to let the student to retake subjects to improve their pointer.

Unless you get C- and below.

I mean HEY, LET ME RETAKE IF I WANT TO! 

I'm making the effort and initiation. 

T____________________T

I literally begging the lecturers and dean and everyone to let me retake one subject.

Please.

I pray and pray and pray.

There's law of attraction I'm trying to apply.

But I still hope God heard and help me.