miracles

My lovely dog, my lovely Ah San

How you used to be a great brother,

to Ah Pui and us.

How you used to be so shy,

turning away your face when we want to kiss you.

How you used to be so obedient,

listening to what we says.

How you used to be so cute,

afraid of disobeying mom but glancing at her instead.

How you used to be so mischievous,

doing things that you know will make mom angry.

How you used to be so active,

running around and chasing birds/rats.

How you used to be so protective,

barking and notifying us about everything.

How you used to be so comforting,

just by being there when I'm sad.

How you used to be so loyal,

staying by our side for 13 long years.

How you used to be so understanding,

looking at us with your eyes filled with emotions.

You were struggling for almost a week,

without any food but only water,

just because your stomach could not handle it.

I knew your time is almost up,

but I'm still not prepared for it.

My tears can't seem to stop.

My family said maybe you're waiting for me to be back..

then I remembered how I used to ask you to wait for me to be back home,

whenever I go back to Kelantan to study.

Did you remember and tried to keep the promise?

I'm sorry that I'm not there to see you for the last time.

I should have went back this weekend.

I hate myself for not doing so.

Please forgive me.

You will always be in my heart,

I Love You

and

I Miss You dearly.

Please be happy..

RIP.

just let me cry for a day..