miracles

It's not what I want now or..
what is my interest..


Why ask me what i want to study
when you already made up your mind to ask me apply government and take whatever they are giving me...
maybe I'm still immature to chase after my dream and interest.
but I just can't imagine my whole life doing something I'm not even interested in.
or stuck in Msia
Just..stop pestering me to apply everyday
or telling me how well other ppl's daughters/sons doing in university although they were reluctant to take the courses offered at first.
Stop criticizing about everything just because you are scared that I insist to take that certain course and want to go private college instead.
Stop confusing me and make me feel sick bout everything.


I couldn't help it but think it's a bit unfair in many ways
which I rather bottled everything inside me .
Why me?
When I think I'm a bit luckier than the 'others',
by the end of the day, things turn the other way round.
I'm the one who is the unluckier one.


Maybe God has great plans with my life.
HAHA.

Who am I to kid.