Why post whatever you're feeling or wanted to say on FB or Twitter or somewhere else?

Just want to share with the whole world?

So your friends know what you are up to?

To seek some attention?

As for me, maybe I was hoping someone out there would stumble upon what I've posted, understands me and save me from all the 'monsters'.

Maybe. Just Maybe.

yes, I have accepted the cruel reality,

but I still cling on the tiny hope.

My lovely dog, my lovely Ah San

How you used to be a great brother,

to Ah Pui and us.

How you used to be so shy,

turning away your face when we want to kiss you.

How you used to be so obedient,

listening to what we says.

How you used to be so cute,

afraid of disobeying mom but glancing at her instead.

How you used to be so mischievous,

doing things that you know will make mom angry.

How you used to be so active,

running around and chasing birds/rats.

How you used to be so protective,

barking and notifying us about everything.

How you used to be so comforting,

just by being there when I'm sad.

How you used to be so loyal,

staying by our side for 13 long years.

How you used to be so understanding,

looking at us with your eyes filled with emotions.

You were struggling for almost a week,

without any food but only water,

just because your stomach could not handle it.

I knew your time is almost up,

but I'm still not prepared for it.

My tears can't seem to stop.

My family said maybe you're waiting for me to be back..

then I remembered how I used to ask you to wait for me to be back home,

whenever I go back to Kelantan to study.

Did you remember and tried to keep the promise?

I'm sorry that I'm not there to see you for the last time.

I should have went back this weekend.

I hate myself for not doing so.

Please forgive me.

You will always be in my heart,

I Love You

and

I Miss You dearly.

Please be happy..

RIP.

just let me cry for a day..

bottled-up everything..

cause I'm afraid to expose my weakness

I just refuse to..

but it's killing me inside.

....

It feels great to be home

and going out with friends.

I get to forget all my worries and tension for a while.

Although I'm guilty for not doing my assignments and study for midterm. Aiksss

It's nice to pamper myself sometimes. (:

Which is more difficult?

To die for someone?

or

To be alive for someone?

Fanfic makes me think again...

I don't want my midsem break to end..

having SIEP2 presentation tomorrow

it's killing me cause my PA is strict

if i don't get A this time I seriously thought of killing whoever there is.

damn.

going fieldtrip at Penang and get to go back home.

seems cool.

but still darn tired and don't wish to move any of my muscle/tissue. 

T_______________T

serious dilemma.

i don't know what to do.

*screamsandthrowtantrum!*

please give me some signs on what to do.